We’re only on the second week and I’ve already learned so much. Technically I left home three weeks ago so the letting go process has been longer than our official adventure start date. I wanted to take a minute to write down some things I have learned/observed for a couple reasons. First, to be able to look back and see how far I have come and second, I really want this blog to be a resource for others. If you can see some of the ways I am growing and pushing through hard thoughts or times then maybe it will be encouraging to you as well. So, here we go.
1. Let go.
You know, before this whole trip I was pretty darn comfortable. But, I got to a place where I felt stuck, burnt out, stressed and exhausted every day. Not stretching yourself can lead to those things. I didn’t want to admit most of these things to myself and thought…well I’ll just get a new job or I’ll move somewhere new or explore a new part of town. I had done all those things before and they always brought me to the same place. When we started preparing for this trip I had only one day I was really emotional about it. But, it was also so freeing to let go. Luke and I decided awhile ago that he was “in charge” of this trip. Where we went, when we did things…etc. That freaked the planner side of me out, but I knew it was exactly what I needed. I’ve really enjoyed the flexibility of going wherever we want and only knowing 2-4 days in advance what we’re doing next. That brings me to my next point.
It is super hard for me to trust people, and my dogs for that matter. That’s a humbling thing to admit. I always claimed to have great trust in people, but these past few years I have realized I have some work to do. I love my husband, but I notice myself second-guessing him, wanting to re-plan over his plans, doubting he can really drive down this mud road safely and that his advice to let Sox duke it out with a dog is really the best for his growth. This trip has already started helping me with that and I’m excited to see where I am two months from now.
This one is an observation from the trip and is completely unrelated to the first two, but equally important to me. I don’t really like documentaries. They usually have an agenda, so they only show extreme cases or points to prove their agenda. If I am going to be convicted about something, I want the information on both sides. So as we drove from Phoenix to Kansas, as you can imagine, we passed many farms. One of the farms we passed I described as a “concert stadium for cows” they were PACKED. It was so sad, they could barely move. When we stopped for gas, Luke’s mom explained those are called feed lots and they just pump the cows with corn and they stand in these mud pits and never really move anywhere else. We passed more than one feed lot, but that was by far the worst. We’d also pass farms where the cows were out grazing and had so much room to roam and it felt so freeing and happier. I do believe animals, just like people, have a purpose in life. I don’t think I could be a vegetarian, but I can tell you I am only supporting grass feeding farms from now on. I’d also just love to partner with a local farm to really know where my food is coming from, but we’ll see when we get there.
I will end with this. Challenge yourself. Get out of your comfort zone once a week; you’ll be so much better for it.